Grief.

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Grief is a sneaky thing.
Last night I found a film on YouTube that my mother would have loved.
I was always searching for a certain kind of film to download for her to watch.
I was hit with melancholy and sadness to know that not only did I not find it before she passed, but that I would never be able to show it to her.

These are the passing things that grab your heart and squeeze it hard…right when you think it’s fine.

You’re managing your grief.

But, you never are.

Harald Kirschner’s photograph of a newspaper kiosk, Halle, East Germany, 1986.

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These kiosks remind me of my childhood.

There was the smell of confections, books, paper and magazines that I remember.  We used to buy blank booklets from these kiosks and paste photos, newspaper clippings and magazine photos into little collages along with poetry and quotes that we liked, and thoughts that were masqueraded to hide their real meanings from Mama’s prying eyes.

These were the days when imagination was our entertainment.

Paul Colin (1892-1985)

Paul Colin (1892-1985)

Josephine Baker in a Banana Skirt
1927
Sheet of the Portfolio Edition Le Tumulte noir
Lithograph, Pochoir Print
47 x 33 cm
© VG Bild-Kunst, Bonn 2018

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The Jazz Orchestra of Josephine Baker
1925
Sheet of the Portfolio Edition Le Tumulte noir
Lithograph, Pochoir Print
47 × 66 cm
© VG Bild-Kunst, Bonn 2018

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André Renaud
1929
Poster, Lithograph
156,7 × 117.8 cm
© VG Bild-Kunst, Bonn 2018